When I first saw that “S” word, I was kinda stunned.
I’m pretty sure my life flashed before my eyes as pieces fell into place.
I recalled that awkward scoliosis exam in school where you have to take your shirt off and bend over.
The last one I had was in 8th grade and at that time they told me that my shoulder blades were uneven.
GASP! I recall panicking in that cramped music room, thinking that it was over. Life as I knew it was over. But then, nothing was mentioned ever again (more on this down the road).
As an adult I would have ample opportunity to be X-Rayed and would discover records of this moderate scoliosis going back to when I was in my early 20s. Nary a mention to me, however.
After discovering these records, I stared at myself in the mirror for a long time, taking in the “new me. ”
I thought I had pretty decent posture for as much as I usually felt like a compressed spring. I certainly didn’t LOOK how I would stereotypically think someone with scoliosis would look.
The rib hump was even more noticeable to me, yet it took on a new meaning. I now understood why I looked how I looked.
I’m fully to terms with the fact that I am, indeed, overweight after 3 pregnancies in less than 4 years. Ya. I get it. I’ve heard that word fat so many times it’s become a household word in my brain. 🗣🧠
A big shout out to everyone who drove that point home for me!
That’s my angry face talking.
My angry face that if any of those dozens of doctor visits had included one of them noticing the obvious rib hump then maybe I could have done something productive about it instead of beating myself up because I was always so exhausted physically from the day and was now at the point where I could barely lift Miss Baby’s car seat and thought I would be forced to get a lawyer and apply for disability.
I guess I should have known for myself, right? I mean, I’ve been carrying this thing around for 35 years.
A fun fact: prior to 2014…I wasn’t fat.
In any case, what were my options now? All I had ever heard was that you had to have surgery and rods to fix scoliosis. Or muscle relaxers and pain killers, injections and cortisol.
These options, in my mind, weren’t options at all, but a sure fire death sentence.
Spine surgery. F-ing rods?!
Standard pharmaceuticals? Also no. I’ve watched people around me crumble and wither under the oppression and ignorance of conventional western medicine and it simply wasn’t happening.
After all…wasn’t this the same system that says there’s nothing you can do about it anyway? 🤔
So, how to deal?
What causes it?
Is it fixable?
There was so much I didn’t know!
All I did know was that I would start yoga immediately and build up to higher impact strength building. My core strength was sorely lacking, and my nerves shot.
I knew we had to start a green smoothie regimen immediately and get our diet back on track.
While patrolling YouTube, I searched Is scoliosis curable and this is what I found
Shortly after watching/listening to this, my head exploded 🤯 and I couldn’t stop listening and learning!
Holy balls- this guy was totally on the same wavelength as I was about western medicine! Bonus: He’s not the only one!
And to my dear friends who may disagree that pharmaceuticals and synthetic food and antibiotics (to name a few) are the scourge of the universe unless absolutely necessary in an emergency situation…you may want to see yourself out now because I’m only going to get worse!
Sit down and let’s change our lives and heal our bodies together!
Moving right along…
I started brainstorming like a psychopath:
How does a spinal curve actually affect your life? Your mood? Your brain?
How common is it?
Is it genetic?
Have people fixed it?
Why all the ignorance??
I was pissed and I still am.
I won’t lie. I hate that there was someone who said that it was never worth a second look or even a mention.
I mean shit. It’s not like it’s an important body part, right?
It’s just a spine!
The mere home of your spinal cord and the literal backbone of your whole self.
Don’t worry about it. You can’t fix it.
I’m about a month and a half into this learning adventure and I urge you to come along!
In the meantime, an amazing Yoga practice for the neck and spine:
Until the next random ass blog when I find a rare moment of quiet after bedtime and between delivering pizza and planning impractical yet necessary camping trips⛺️